I had a panic attack about 8:00 last night, beginning at the Flying Saucer and continuing on a green park bench on the Main Street Mall. It was the first one I’ve ever had in my life.<\/p>\n
There was no one major cause of the attack – rather, about a dozen stimuli\/frustrations that added up. Also, my intuition was telling me I was in danger if I remained on Downtown’s streets all night long. It was past the Union Mission’s closing time.<\/p>\n
I put an SOS out on Facebook explaining the situation. Several friends said I should go to the ER but I don’t have health insurance. Finally, after about an hour a kind friend messaged me that I could crash in her spare room about 5 blocks away. I walked over there and after about 30 minutes, fell asleep, safely off the streets for the night.<\/p>\n
It’s 10:50 Monday morning as I type this at the Memphis Chess Club. I have $6 in my pocket that I will use to get into the Union Mission tonight. So dinner and a place to sleep are guaranteed.<\/p>\n
Apology<\/strong><\/p>\n …to the anonymous person who sent me half a sandwich and chips at the Saucer. When I left, I was freaking out so bad that I couldn’t handle carrying a to-go box around. I appreciate the generous gesture and I am sorry your food went uneaten. I sure wish I had it this morning.<\/p>\n Reminder<\/strong><\/p>\n If you ask someone “What’s going on with Paul?”, please make sure the person you’re asking<\/p>\n Thanksgiving<\/strong><\/p>\n I’ve accepted an invitation from friends in the service industry to come to the Thanksgiving dinner they are having. So I won’t be alone on the holiday.<\/p>\n I’m gonna spend my remaining time at the Chess Club reading spiritual authors’ articles on Medium. Linh Hunyh and Anne Bellamy are two of my favorites.<\/p>\n Thanks for reading. Back tomorrow with the usual blog stuff.<\/p>\n I gratefully accept tips:\u00a0<\/strong><\/em> I had a panic attack about 8:00 last night, beginning at the Flying Saucer and continuing on a green park bench on the Main Street Mall. It was the first one I’ve ever had in my life. There was no one major cause of the attack – rather, about a dozen stimuli\/frustrations that added up. … Continue reading “Panic attack”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29323"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=29323"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29323\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":29325,"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/29323\/revisions\/29325"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=29323"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=29323"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.paulryburn.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=29323"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}\n
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